MY MOTHER! I have spent the last 2 months vomiting and gagging and vomiting some more. I lost 17 pounds and absolutely none of my clothes fit! Mamma came March 31 and is still here, helping me daily with everything. I don't know what I would do without her, the smell of a dirty diaper sends me into a gagging fit! Nanny Bit, as Zeke will hopefully one day will be able to say (Bi is what he calls her for now) has been spending all of her time with her sweet baby boy! Zeke absolutely adores her and when he gets up in the morning is trying to go into her room to wake her up. I am so excited to see him with his Papa John when we return home! I couldn't have asked for better grandparents for my babies. I had a friend say tonight that Grandparents are only good for playing with the grandchildren. I set him straight right quick! Not my Mamma! She really is a HUGE help! Cooks, cleans, changes nasty Zeke butt, and so much more. Of course, Zeke helps, too! When I am throwing up he comes in the bathroom with me and pretends he is throwing up, too. And, then proceeds to shut the toilet lit on my head! Isn't he so sweet! It actually makes me laugh and feel a little better!
I must say, even with the sickness I know that I am blessed. I will be leaving soon to go back home, and I don't know whether to be completely excited or sickened even more with sadness. Paul will not be able to join me and once again I will be giving birth without my husband. This time I know that I can do it, without worrying about the bond of new baby and Daddy. Zeke loves his Daddy more than anything in this world. I guess that will be the hardest part, having to take Zeke away from Paul for 6 months. I pray for a miracle, that God will somehow make it possible for Paul to be there with me, but I know and accept that that may not be part of His plan! I will do whatever it is I have to do, knowing that the love of my life is here waiting for me and our 2 children to return. I am positive that I will have days where I just don't think I can do it without him, where Satan tries to step in and make me weak. I will push through though and all in my hope and faith in Christ! This baby is a true miracle from God and I move forward knowing that He has plans for my family that I can't even imagine! How wonderful! Please continue to pray for Paul, Zeke, Baby #2 and me! And, if you could pray that Baby #2 is a girl!!!
“But in your hearts set apart Christ as Lord. Always be prepared to give an answer to everyone who asks you to give the reason for the hope that you have. But do this with gentleness and respect.” 1 Peter 3:15 (NIV)
