GREEEEEEN!
That's right we got the go-ahead about noon today! We are so excited to be moving forward. Honestly, we are a little gape-mouthed at the way God has been opening doors for us with this new project.
So, now that we have a definite solid plan we are ready to role! I can't wait to see the things that God has in-store for us.
I am gonna rock being a single mommy for a while, and Paul is gonna rock at working to support his family in a way we never thought possible!
Keep praying people! We are gonna need it. And, if I am bald the next time you see me, well just remember I am with two little tricycle motors who never stop!
because you know that the testing of your faith produces perseverance. Let perseverance finish its work so that you may be mature and complete, not lacking anything. If any of you lacks wisdom, you should ask God, who gives generously to all without finding fault, and it will be given to you. James 1:3-5
Monday, March 28, 2011
Sunday, March 27, 2011
God's Will
It constantly amazes me how God can turn us in a completely new direction at any given time. Lately, it seems that my husband and I have been going through one of those crazy roundabouts like you see in the movies (or if you live here in Ecuador, the ones you see daily). And, suddenly God has decided that we will go in a certain direction. He gave us no notice, and He has told us very little about where it is going to take us.
My husband is going to venture into new studies that I will refrain from sharing as it is very personal for him. And, I will take our two precious boys and return to the US for an unknown amount of time.
Tomorrow we will receive news that will change our lives forever. No, I am not pregnant. No, none of us are sick. But, God will either give my husband the green light to move forward in his endeavor, or He will tell him to explore other options. I am praying, of course that he gets the green light. Paul needs to smile, needs to move on and do what he has always dreamed of doing.
So, what does this mean for me? Well, God has put me here to be my husbands helper. To support him in any and every way possible. I will take Zeke and Benji back to the States where we will stay with my Granny for three or four weeks until I can get us on our feet. I have once again been humbled by asking my family for assistance. My Granny has everything ready, a week and a half early. I asked my Uncle tonight to help me getting a car, which was probably the hardest thing I have ever had to do. He has always been there for me, but honestly I was nauseous and shaking before making that call. Also, I will be going to my local government office and asking for help. I have done this before and it is humiliating. However, I know that I am using the system for the right reasons and that when I am on my feet I will not abuse it.
We leave in a little over a week and I am terrified. Mostly, I am scared of the full day of flying and going through airports with a two year old and a six month old. I know that it will be exhausting and arriving to my final destination at almost midnight is sure to mean that the following day I will be a zombie.
I also worry about how this will effect Zeke. I worry about him being away from his father for a long period of time, he is a Daddy's boy all the way. I know that I will have to fulfill both mother and father for a while. The thought of him losing his Spanish has me nervous because we have done so much to ensure that he gets adequate time in both languages. Heck, I should be more worried about me losing my Spanish.
As for Benji, well I am so relieved that he is still a baby and will never remember this time. I have personally witnessed how Zeke went back and forth while he was young and did just fine. The saddest part is that Paul will not be there for all of his changes.
I foresee Benji's first birthday without Daddy there. Christmas apart, which is something we said we would never do again. This is the sacrifice that we are going to have to make in order for our family to eventually prosper. We must struggle to reach happiness.
As for our marriage, we are working hard through the Word of God to ensure that we are strong through this time. Our study is helping so much already and we are hanging on to every last Word that God has to offer. His love is evident, and we are seeing the finish line even though we know that it is very far away. We pray that God will sustain us with an abundant amount of love for one another, as well as the strength that both of us will need to accomplish what we are being called to do.
I ask that all of you reading please pray for us continuously. Pray that God will in fact give us the go, and that we will be able to be warriors and beat the battle that that entails. We appreciate all of our friends and family members who have been so supportive and who will be there to lift us up when times get tough. Thank you all for everything that you do to show us your love daily.
God has not given us a spirit of fearfulness, but one of power, love and sound judgement. 2 Timothy 1:7
My husband is going to venture into new studies that I will refrain from sharing as it is very personal for him. And, I will take our two precious boys and return to the US for an unknown amount of time.
Tomorrow we will receive news that will change our lives forever. No, I am not pregnant. No, none of us are sick. But, God will either give my husband the green light to move forward in his endeavor, or He will tell him to explore other options. I am praying, of course that he gets the green light. Paul needs to smile, needs to move on and do what he has always dreamed of doing.
So, what does this mean for me? Well, God has put me here to be my husbands helper. To support him in any and every way possible. I will take Zeke and Benji back to the States where we will stay with my Granny for three or four weeks until I can get us on our feet. I have once again been humbled by asking my family for assistance. My Granny has everything ready, a week and a half early. I asked my Uncle tonight to help me getting a car, which was probably the hardest thing I have ever had to do. He has always been there for me, but honestly I was nauseous and shaking before making that call. Also, I will be going to my local government office and asking for help. I have done this before and it is humiliating. However, I know that I am using the system for the right reasons and that when I am on my feet I will not abuse it.
We leave in a little over a week and I am terrified. Mostly, I am scared of the full day of flying and going through airports with a two year old and a six month old. I know that it will be exhausting and arriving to my final destination at almost midnight is sure to mean that the following day I will be a zombie.
I also worry about how this will effect Zeke. I worry about him being away from his father for a long period of time, he is a Daddy's boy all the way. I know that I will have to fulfill both mother and father for a while. The thought of him losing his Spanish has me nervous because we have done so much to ensure that he gets adequate time in both languages. Heck, I should be more worried about me losing my Spanish.
As for Benji, well I am so relieved that he is still a baby and will never remember this time. I have personally witnessed how Zeke went back and forth while he was young and did just fine. The saddest part is that Paul will not be there for all of his changes.
I foresee Benji's first birthday without Daddy there. Christmas apart, which is something we said we would never do again. This is the sacrifice that we are going to have to make in order for our family to eventually prosper. We must struggle to reach happiness.
As for our marriage, we are working hard through the Word of God to ensure that we are strong through this time. Our study is helping so much already and we are hanging on to every last Word that God has to offer. His love is evident, and we are seeing the finish line even though we know that it is very far away. We pray that God will sustain us with an abundant amount of love for one another, as well as the strength that both of us will need to accomplish what we are being called to do.
I ask that all of you reading please pray for us continuously. Pray that God will in fact give us the go, and that we will be able to be warriors and beat the battle that that entails. We appreciate all of our friends and family members who have been so supportive and who will be there to lift us up when times get tough. Thank you all for everything that you do to show us your love daily.
God has not given us a spirit of fearfulness, but one of power, love and sound judgement. 2 Timothy 1:7
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